Gremlins Strike Again. Only Strengthening My Resolve

Gremlins Strike

Been losing stuff lately. Lost my headphones for Ipod. Lost my New Balance that has my Ipod sensor. Today lost my black moleskin. It had 30 bucks in it. I know it’s not much, but still, the books had stuff I did not want to lose. Nothing I can’t replace, it just it sucks. I don’t want to give it more time and energy because the Gremlins that hid it from me will enjoy my depression. I am upset by the loss. Yet, not so much.

Found--No Longer Lost

Last night at a church meeting, I found a letter that I somehow was in possession of. Must have picked it up accidentally when I had the meeting with the Father. The father coincidentally attended the meeting and I  returned his missing letters to him. It was good feeling returning something that was lost. There is something about finding lost things.

Search For Meaning

There is something about losing something of importance. I’m sure there is a reason for it. Right now I don’t see the bigger picture. Maybe it was the chance coincidence I had with the priest. Maybe it was that I needed to return to St. Mary’s at the time. Whatever reason, I hope to find my book. I liked it.

I was taking a day, doing laundry. Meal Planning, dishes, and general chores. Worked out this morning, too. Jumped in the freezing cold pool. Prepping for a Polar Bear thing. Watched Part of Ali. He’s an inspiration. Not bad of a start for the day. Spent sometime looking for my Black moleskin. Checked my car three times.  It wasn’t in my clothes. I was planning on paying a late fine for the library and catching a flic.  The black moleskin had stuff that I wanted to keep. It had notes that were important to me. Maybe losing it was important to re-visit those things that I wrote. Whatever reason, its gone. 

Gremlins. Well, that’s enough energy on this.

What was lost can be replaced. What was written can be re-written. What can not be done now, can be done later. Gremlins, good effort.  Can’t beat me.  In my forty days, I am getting the program. Won’t let little things get to me. In this process of change, I am learning so much more. Intentions count. Set backs are just part of the program.  Setbacks are strengthening my resolve.

Emoto's Water Crystal

If thoughts can do that to water, imagine what our thoughts can do to us.  Dr. Masaru Emoto’s water research.  I got the photo from the  Masaru Emoto website If you don't know about this well, I let you discover the power of thought physically effecting objects. Click on the national anthem themes. On YouTube, check out the positive and negative energy on water.

Need a shot of feel good

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Oprah and Black Eyed Peas--watch at least to the half point  Tonight’s going to be a good

Muse--New Dawn  New Dawn

Just Waking Up In the Morning Gotta thank . . .Big Smile (Part 1 of 2)

Did not get much sleep last night. Can’t tell you how happy that made me feel. Got home in bed at 2:30 am. My adventure started in the Antelope Valley to Del Amo/ Torrance to Burbank to Bel Air to Pasadena and then back home. It was great. Saw Hana Sushi. Saw the National Cemetary. Saw the 6967. Saw the bar of Yes Man. Drove the green, green mountains of highway 14. What was the greatest part of the entire adventure, it was seeing family.

Left late afternoon around 3:30 from Palmdale. It was late, in that, I had much commuter traffic to go deal with. Everyone would be getting off work and would make the 405 a parking lot. Yet, this day was different. After logging many wasted hours sitting on the freeway, I knew the battle ahead. For some reason,  the roads parted from Palmdale on ramp to the Crenshaw Blvd exit. Got there an hour earlier than planned. Had time to just take it in and say my thanks to the Big Smile. Took to amazing pics, too.

Birthday Wishes Come Early
You know its my birthday in two days. Got my gift a couple days earlier than expected. Got a birthday wish from a beautiful high school friend I went on a dance with. Got another birthday message from a Vampire Wars friend. (I promise to return thank yous after I finishing typing these magical moments)

My gift was seeing my second cousin’s 5th Birthday. It was pretty awesome. A new family. Kids had a birthday habit (genetics, I guess). I had the same issue. We knew cakes felt lonely. Birthday cake is just sitting on the table not being appreciated. . .well,  you got to appreciate. Its lonely. So much activity all around. Kids playing with toys. Family cooking. Laughing, smiling, and the cake gets nothing. Kids are in tune to unhappy vibes of the cake. Well, they want to show love so, kids take swipes of the frosting. Yummm. Inexperience. They need someone to show them the way. Lucky for them I was there to show the way. 

Cake Taster, Birthday Boy's Responsibility
Kids don’t take fingers swipes at the top of the cake. You take it at the bottom. On the sides. Take swipes where no one can see cake divots. The obligatory pictures and Birthday song time are simply too long. Sugar bliss right there, come on. Patience is a virtue; however, one can always for Forgiveness. Cakes want to be eaten. Kids want to eat cake. One can only guess outcome. Plus, there is an unsaid birthday celebrant's responsibility. Who checks the cake is up to birthday standards? It is the responsibility of the celebrant. Don't forget, its his damn party. What are you going to do not eat the cake? Are you not going to sing him birthday? Come on. It his duty to make sure the cake is good. If not, let’s just call the whole thing off. Enough said about that.

Beautiful Home Filled With Love
Went to a beautiful home. With beautiful family, with lots and lots of family and friends. People I never knew until a few days back. You see, I hardly know anyone on my late father’s side. Chelle was gracious to invite her to home to celebrate her son’s birthday. There has been a calling for me to learn more about my Dad's side of the family. I am glad I went. It was incredible. Not only was the eats great. I mean great. No, I mean outstanding. Ribs perfect. Grilled eggplant and peppers. Suvaki--just delicious. Her husband is Greek and manages a Greek restaurant. You know the food was outstanding.

The whole time was full of love. Lots and lots. . .lots of Love. So many things revealed. So many questions answered by a glorious trip.  First, one was greeted by yips and yaps of the furry three. Tiny. Reminds me of Tina, my fearless Chihuahua that loves swimming with the ducks. Smiling hand-sized dogs. The door opened and I was greeted by a  great big smile and warm loving hug. It was cousin Michelle. It was . . .Home.

Don’t get me wrong I love my family. It was different. Kind of like chocolate. I mean there’s three musketeers. The Twix. Hershey Kiss. Its just a new flavor the family of Chocolate. It felt, smelt, tasted, looked, and sounded like. . .Home. Could’ve burst into tears. Just not the guy thing to do. Inside. It was something.  If you ever watch the movie Joy Luck Club at the end, it was like that.It’s just its been a whole lifetime. More than a quarter of decade since I seen Chelle. What I remember Chell, she was the short, skinny girl that Dolph and Robert picked on.  “Cuz” was what she called me. Awesome. Great ear to ear smile. Her presence just fills the room.

Husband a strong, good man. Ex-Judo guy. I've seen his type at Gold's Gym before. Body builder-type. Walks with an air of confidence and strength. He has "If I want to kick your ass air, I love family deeply and I know how to get shit done" air about him. I love that. Well, their home was filled with toys in the living room. The kids were playing, watching Sponge Bob (My favorite). My cousins. Cool. These strangers were part of me. A part I never knew. They were my family, too.  My Dad’s family. Best way I can describe it was like this. When I schooled in Boston for college, coming off the airplane and seeing Mom and Dad smiling and waiting in the airport terminal after more than year away. It was that feeling. A connection of who you are while you weren’t there. It’s a welcoming of old you and new you. It is the merging of all love then and all the love now and love in the future. Its all the important stuff in one single moment.

Stealing a line from the movie Star Trek Insurrection. "A person can live a whole lifetime in a moment in time."

Well, I’m sorry but I got to run. Wish I had more time to write. But, 800+ words , plus ten minutes to get where I need to go in five minutes time.

It's A New Dawn

Birds flying high,
You know how I feel
Sun in the sky
You know how I feel
Breeze driftin' on by
You know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me..
And I'm feeling good--The Roar of the Greasepaint—the Smell of the Crowd, 1965 musical


Song Lifts the Spirit
How are you feeling? Lyrics from the “Feeling Good” written by Newley and Bricusse. Sang by many musical luminaries, Nina Simone, John Coltraine, Sammy Davis Jr, George Michael, the Muse, and so many more.

How are you feeling?
Word choice, the painting of a picture, the accompaniment of the percussion, the resonance of a singers voice raises spirits in ways that I cannot adequately describe. Every morning, I have been taking pictures of the sunrise. It reminds to think of something beautiful. This song “Feeling Good” explains has how I feel when I see the sunrise.

Firebird Promise, Why?
Seeing the sunrise, even when there is no sun to see, it still brings me . . .Joy. It brings me Hope. Knowing it is out there it brings me strength. I get energized. It brings me sleep, bringing me peace that a person can do more. A person remake oneself with every passing moment. One can get another chance. One can do more. One can do better. If not in this life, but in the next. One can strive to do more, to do better, to be better. It’s a new life.

Ray of Sunshine, You Can Be
Raining quite a bit lately. Streets flooded. Car stalled. Roads closed. Tornadoes stopped traffic. City blocks blacked out. Yet, knowing there a new dawn, a new day, I can’t help but feel good. I hope in your quest you remember that songs that brings a new Hope. In cloudy days, it may be a sliver of sunshine that can make all the difference in the world. Before you know it, the whole sky is filled with Hope and Joy.


Remember you, too, can be that sliver of light on that cloudy day. Be that blossom in the tree. Be that butterfly out having fun. You know what I mean. Hug your kids. Smile at the passerby. Kiss the Loved One. Be bold in this old world because in a flash it can be a new world. You can be that beam of light that starts the sunshine that takes up the entire sky.

Now, you know how I feel. “And I’m feeling good.”