Nose is stuffed up. My chin is on some toilet paper writing. ESPN is on. Pau Gasol is giving an interview. Windows is open. Not hot. Not cold. Nice. A dog is barking in the distance. Desert air is nice. I hear the cars drive by at the distance. Tried to sleep early and I did. Just work up early and can’t get to sleep. Played on Facebook for a bit, but it doesn’t hold the same interest as before. 
I read on my family’s post and I see a life lived. I also read on post, many people that play games. Haven’t accepted some game invitation in case of nights like these. Almost a 100 gifts I haven’t accepted. Guess, when I hit the century mark than I will accept them.
Just saw a photo album with my cousin. A beautiful lady with wonderful children. She ventures to places I’ve been and wanting to go. Just saw the poppy fields photos. She went to the Grove. She also was in my old haunts of time long ago. The tar pits. A true spirit.
Fell off the wagon with working out. Haven’t been praying as much as before. Don’t know if its Gremlins. Don’t know if its laziness. Don’t know if it is my Nike sensor not working. Don’t know if it this cold I have been feeling. Just been out of synch for a bit. Its been a couple of weeks and I’m just not in tune. Not hitting on all cylinders. Went to get my echo and from what I heard is that my EF% has been pretty dramatic. In other words, it was around the teens before. Ejection fraction for my heart was so low that I was considered to be put on a heart donor list. Its almost in the 60’s now.
This is something to be very proud of. Yet, not feeling all that good. It feels like I am missing much and just existing. Someone wrote me that they like the fact that I love my family so. I do. Whole heartedly. My heart is getting bigger and stronger.
Dog barks are getting louder. More cars are driving by. Its almost morning soon. Just a couple of hours. Been writing more often. Less on my blog, more on other things. So why haven’t I written as much. Maybe it’s more quality than quantity. Been walking in more events. Finally finished my Mediation course this last weekend. Hooked up with an old family friend. Maybe I need an attunement? Maybe I don’t know.
Chris is getting married to Jewel in three weeks. RC is leaving for the PI. Haven’t talked to Jay and the pool is not heated. Nose is stuffed. Used toilet paper snot rags litter on my floor. Can’t seem to break this cold.
Watched Iron Man DVD. Watched Speechless. Watched Punchline. Went to library and got the VCR working. whoah. That is going old school. Some of the movies there are ones I don't see on dvd. Life has been active, but I think its time to cocoon. I am grateful for all that has been given. I am grateful for all that has been accomplished. I am grateful for all the family and friends there. I am grateful for everything. Yet, why do I feel unsatisfied?
Moon is almost full. Cars still are racing by. They call this the time of the wolf. Time when its not quite dawn and the dark of the night is upon us. I’m sure there are some foxes or wolves outside. Had a dog come to the house and I did not feed him. Tried to give him some pineapple, but he just stayed. Why was I more apt to give a dog some food versus giving a person from AM/PM some change? What is wrong with me?
Been out of synch and not in tune. The way things were done in the past is not working. It is time to do something different. I believe in Higher Up. I believe that there is a purpose and bigger plan. I believe that the path I am on will lead me to where I need to go. I don’t know. Guess, just out of synch. Just of tune. 
No the moon is full. Just got a better look. More dogs are barking and howling outside. Something is happening to make them howl so. Can’t get to sleep and my nose is still stuffed.Guess, its time to clean the floor.
