Again

Positioned my bed so when I wake up every morning, it would be to the cool breeze of the day and morning sun. Its Carson's Baptism Day. Will need to leave soon. Kevin and the girls will be leaving shortly. Going to Woodward for gymnastic camp this Memorial weekend. A drive to Tehachapi will not be a quick one. Might visit Tatay today. Or Monday. Need to decorate his house.That reminds me. Ancestry is having a free day for military records.

Just checked. He may not have been a Marine as I once believed. Its difficult to learn that the memories that I once believed are not true. Disappointed in them. Disappointment in myself. Didn't recognize the falseness. Missed the obvious. 

Was taken recently. Knew that the bullshit was being laid thick. I wanted to believe. To give the person the benefit of the doubt. I wanted to trust. Signs were there. Family was in the car. Cover story was shoddy. Still didn't have enough to stay stop, get the "Fuck out of here." Didn't stand, I acquiesced. A $200 lesson that I learned the hard way. 

Its been a week. Trying to take stock of where I am. 

Went to Game Stop with the nephew. We got Spiderman. He played the game for a minute, but it was broken. Kept on restarting in the middle. So we needed to bring it back. He said, he was sorry. Told him, its not his fault and there is no need to feel sorry. It happens. People make mistakes. Things it is only a mistake when you stop doing something about it.

When time runs out, you can never go back to clean up the mess one makes. This a line from a Bruno Mars song. House is stirring now. Rush to the shower has started. Will need to get in soon, but I would like to finish this stint.

They went to a wedding last night. Got home late. Not sure when, I was knocked out before they got back. Anyways, my return to the blog. Its a start. . .That's enough for now.