I has sad.
It is what she posted.
Its how I feel. Not up. Weighed Down. That is what it feels like. Been
like this all day.Trying hard not to give it more energy. Don’t want to feed
that wolf biting at my soul. I know this temporary. I hope. Weather is cold
outside and all I want to do is get under the blanket and just cocoon.
Not wanting the brisk air. Just want. . .Heck, it is being
defriended by someone I would like to be close to.
Not mine. Feels like the
door is being closed. I am afraid it might be forever.
Hollow right now. There is much to be happy about. Still my
glasses are dim and I am not feeling the Love. Its funny how a simple act as a
click can change your whole day. A simple click can bring light to a very dark
mood. A simple click can turn out all the happiness away.
This is deluded and not very healthy. So much to be thankful
for. So much to reach for. So much. . .Yet,
when it is not the one you want. Not the one you need. It is just a
shake my head and go. Not wanting this feeling. Not being wanted. Guess this
how I made her feel.
She doesn’t need me. Don’t think she even wants me. Don’t
blame her.
So do I break a promise and close this door. Do I accept
this and turn away. I’m at that point of no return.
Accept goodbye?
