Storyteller You Are

A sit outside. Listening to a book on cd. Yes, an archaic thing. However, it works for me. The sun will be overhead in a couple hours. Ideally, I’ll be finished jump roping for the morning. Maybe I will stretch some and start reading some graphic novels. Maybe I  did my religious read. Used the FutureMe  app and I recently adjusted how I used it.

Instead of journaling what I did that day for the FutureMe app for to read to remind me. I’ve adjusted. Now I use it to project what I will have accomplished the next day.  It sets the tone for me on the day to be. I have spent the time looking ahead as if it is already done. Then why I journal and write what was done. Recording the thoughts and feeling of the time.

This shift gives respect to the future and allows for possibility to happen. After reading some books past post,  I realized the feelings I had. It saddens a little. It feels like wasted time. Wasted time on bad relationships. Instead of making efforts to forget (on stuff deep down inside I don’t want to forget); I don’t want to be weighed down by the hurt. Calling it a learning lesson gets old. We graduate in hopes of learning life’s lessons. Yet, we constantly need a refresher. Feelings, like some friends, fade. I know the transitive quality of life. The impermanence of it all.

Still one knows the future is never promised and the past no longer exists.  Yet always living in the now is just like being feathers in the wind. Governed by the strength of the gust. To be real honest oneself, we are just dust in the wind. It is delusional not to be aware of this.

However...dust we may be. We are Star Dust.

In a meaningless life, it is valuable to give meaning to one’s life. Our story belongs to the world.. our story is tomorrow’s parable. Our little lives are the foundation for the next one. We are storytellers. Some may view one’s life a warning; others may live a life of joy and aspiration. Look at almost every religious texts. They are the stories of people. Heroes, saints, and persecutors.

So what’s your story? Why do you what you do? What have you done? What do you remember? What your feelings and thought? What are your future hopes? Did everything fall into place or was it planned out and  executed? Well, it’s your story. You highlight what’s important and filter out the irrelevant.

What’s your story?

Up...Please

Coco is limping. She was barking at me last night. Kept telling her to jump on the bed because I was too tired to just pick her up and get re-situated.

Yesterday, she got vaccinated and I just realized earlier today that she was limping. Didn’t register to me last night that she needed help and I just felt bad about it now. Normally she’s full of pep but watching her go under the bed limping...yeah I felt like an ass. Forgot that she may be having after effects from her shots. Vet techs said it would be a few days.

Why sometimes we have the blinders? We miss other's troubles. We forget sometimes they are not as spry as before. Their get-up-and-go has got-up-and-left. This lesson I will remember.

We hope others will remember the hurt and pain one feels. We hope that they will be in a better place. We hope that certain accommodations will be made. Yes, I understand that everyone has troubles. I get that some people will want to denigrate and de humanize others. Won’t go into political stuff but I will leave up to you to look with softer eyes. It’s easy to scapegoat and blame others for their lot in life. However, I’m reminded of a scene from movie. The movie’s name escapes me.

Nevertheless, the protagonist says, the business man is only a few bad or missed paychecks from the homeless person. Not sure if there ever was time there wasn’t a class system between the have and have-nota. Some cultures still have caste systems. Not going to lay out any platitudes, like “I’m my brother’s keeper” or “Remember the Golden Rule” If you don’t know these sayings by now, then that’s on you.

Anyways, no moral to the story here. No call to action. Just I was reminded that to first address a problem, one must understand the concern. Sorry, Coco. We’ll go for a walk when you’ll feel better.

A New Journey

 

Been awhile. So it’s that time again. Time for silence is over

What’s happened since I last wrote? You know instead of re-hashing past events. I’m sure the events since last written will surface in future posts. I’ll just free associate and see where it takes us. Swam today. 50 laps which is a little over half a mile. Did 15 miles last month. Wasn’t really tracking distance before just number of laps and how much time I had. Did the medley. Breast, freestyle, back and butterfly. Haven’t done these strokes in over a year and I suspect it’s been longer than that. Used to concern self with speed and if I was getting a good workout. Now it’s not as challenging which I must say is a good thing. Gotten fitness level high enough where I need more.

 In a couple of hours  I’ll take a quick walk and start my next journey of making myself a runner. Not my favorite thing and may be hazardous to my knees. Yet I’ll hope that SAID will take in effect.  Specific adaptation increased demands. In other words body will adjust. Goal this month is to average 15 miles per week for the month. Starting from 0 to 15. Some day I’d like to run 10+ miles straight. In the to next 5 years do a marathon. 5K before that. Why so? It’d time. It’s been on bucket list for awhile and i need the challenge. 

Last month completed a couple of milestones. Broke the 200 lb barrier. Was having steady decline for awhile; however, plateaued for a few months so last month decided to intermittent fast. Sunrise to sunset, no eats. This made a difference. Sure the weight dropped 10 lbs. But the biggest change is that it has strengthened my willpower. This is the second month I’ve intermittent fasted. Not in a row. Took a month break after my first month. My body has adjusted and i found that i like the benefits. Appreciate food more. Freed up my time by not thinking about cooking or eating. 

Okay that is enough for now.