"It started with a girl. . ."--I wonder how many resolutions started with this. I wonder how many lives have changed because of this. Too many I suspect. Not saying the start off is good or bad but the theme may be a universal one. Eve offered Adam a bite. I am not sure but I suspect those that know know. Started with a brush of the lips of good friends that took a liking. Than the course of ones life was forever altered. Attending a dance class just to say, "Hi" It started with a Jazz Exercise class because it was an attempt to be close when they were on the other side of the continent. Morphed to aerobics and this obsession started into a career. I liked the Hip Hop instructor, Than I tried Step and next 10 years of my life found me at Baer's, then Golds, and LA Fitness. Was members of a few others but it stemmed from, "It started with a girl. . ."
Now, I find myself looking ahead of another life changing step. May be temporary but I suspect one door closing and another one opening happening here. Been a Zumba-aholic for some time. I knew I would be. Went out of my way of not going to class because I knew once I was in, I was in. Its been that way for a good year. Took on average of 2 and half classes per day. Often taking three and four on more than one occasion. Tried to find that place of not getting too close to others because I knew that some day I would take a liking or that the beginning of a friendship may lead to growing affections. This may or may not be develop but if it didn't than something would have to change. Knew it from the start and I wasn't ready to risk it. I know the best way to continue attending class and not make that association with a person and with the class. Its like driving by an exes place so much that the pain eventually wanes. There is a psychological explanation--operant conditioning blah blah blah
So what, anyways I am putting it out loud for the Universe to hear and for me to follow through. No Zumba for a month. No Facebook for two. I've been on the last few days of a no fast food for 3 month stint and I am in my last week. Probably wean myself back in May for Zumba but I will go to other places. Will try spinning and have more yoga. Lift more and just try other things. Its funny how it starts. Knew nothing should happen because others were involved. Just imagination running wild and I guess that was why I let my guard down.
In any event, this is positive. Work on other goals and I realize I am ready for the Universe to let others in. Cocooned myself for some time and tried to be that island but the ocean currents were strong and it made me realize that its okay to risk. Okay to hurt. Okay to move and move on. Sometimes radical change is called and one needs to Flow.
Looking at the lineup, I think I was due for change. Not liking the subs too much and I realized withdrawals and knew that bonding was growing. I am sure there will be awkwardness ahead, but I suspect its for the best. So. . .Its out loud and now its on the internet-verse. No un-ringing of this bell. Probably regret, but like in chess there are no take backsies. We make a gather info, consider options, than we act (or not). Not acting is not my nature. Choosing to do other things is mine. If anyone asks, "It started with a girl. . ."
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