The NKOB will be home alone. Actually, I will be their guardian, their caretaker. Young Men, but still not quite ready. Life has been challenging adjusting to the shock. Had eats last night with baller. Don't know him well yet, but nice nonetheless. Texas is quieter more subdued. Smart as a whip and good head on his shoulder. Still not out of his shell, but this is understandable with what has happened.
Going to be chauffeur tomorrow. Wasn't the person I should have been, but now I am playing with the role. Not sure what this entails but I am slowly and surely. Maybe someday I will be the 17 like I imagine, but that is for another day. Danced a bit this mid morning. I know the routine but I was just zone mode. No joy in my eyes. Just the seriousness of the routine. Getting it right. One lady was kind enough to say I got the steps down. Just got lost in the action I guess.
I need to smile more. Have more joy. Feel the music.
After the life review, it was a bit disheartening. Maybe like Scrooge reviewing his life and wanting to make amends. I hope there is time. So what is the meaning of this rattling? It is my moment in the Flow. Taking the stimuli and just going within. Learning the balance of between Internal and External Flow. Been Reading a book on NDE. Some of it makes sense.
No real story for today. Just an accounting of the Moment. For right now, this will suffice. Why Because I Smile.
Was reminded a few days ago what a Smile can mean. It can mean Hope.
