Last week of the year. This one went by fast. Finished some
things and still have some stuff left undone. Opened Christmas gifts early
today. Just got home from Pasadena tonight. Went to Uncle Alex’s house for
family get together. Saw something amazing today. It was at the cemetery. Wish
I had charged my phone. Wish I didn’t forget my camera.
All these plots were decorated with Christmas decorations.
Visited Tatay and Rochelle today. I can tell someone was there. The flower
holder was easy to remove. There was family there today. Actually many, but
there was one who I am guessing recently passed. They were all huddled together
saying a prayer. Heard Santa Maria a few times. Anyways, I wish you could have
seen what I have seen.
Anyways was there only for a little bit. Thought how in a
generation or two. They will not be remembered. Maybe except in a picture or
two. Just got me a little sad thinking about it. No one will remember Tatay and
Rochelle like I did. Thought about Michael. Don’t know if anyone visits him.
Thought about Dad. Thought about it, but I didn’t want to dwell on too much.
Such is life.
I can understand the importance of Facebook. Connecting with
people. Having the Timeline document your thoughts and feelings in the Internet
universe. Living in a way that will be electronically be remembered. Visited a
few museums this year. Nettercutt, Bowers, LACMA, Japanese, MOCA, and few
others. Just taking time to remember the past. Standing and looking at some of
the airplanes at Joe Davies. Looking at the vintage cars at the Nettercutt.
Visiting Tatay and Rochelle. Rodney and his family will be leaving soon. For
real. Felt it today as we were sitting next to each other. Thought about Ron’s
friend. He was wearing his purple tie. I wonder what he will do when they are
gone
When Rhi, said, “Hi, Uncle Jeff” It made me smile. Thinking
of Uncle John and Alex. Thinking of Aunt Flor and Ruth. Thinking of relatives I
still haven’t met. Made some promises, well, no resolutions this year. Kept
some. Many, but some, still haven’t touched. Proud to say I finally visited
Michael. Proud I finally watch Dad’s funeral. Proud that I knocked off a few
things on the bucket list. Some, I am did not keep. Visiting Mary and Marv is a
big one for me. Going to a drive in
movie and Silent One is another.
Strengthened some relations and let some wane. As the year
comes to a close, I am haunted by some words. Auld Lang Syne. Saw some storms a
brewing. Between son and mother (not mine). Between Sisters (and inlaws)
Between Old Friends and New Ones.
On this Christmas day, can’t help think of Christmas Mass.
Eyes closed as the priest gave his homilee. Standing in line waiting to get
Communion. Thought of Shazam, Rinnes, Elaine. Thought of Rod, Ron, and Jason.
Thought of Mike, Brian, and Mike. Of course my Brother and the family. Mom, Dad.
Thought of relatives I have never met and ones I haven’t seen in years. Michelle,
Randy, Bobby, Minnie, and Wynnel. Thought of Bambi, Pia, Bee, and Mary. Thought
of my friends that I may seen soon at
the wedding. Thought about the Rose.
My mind wanders of the journey I will face ahead. Some
alone. Some with others. Some with many.
I would like to think things can change with Em and I. Not sure how to
proceed. Anyways, I have been blessed and I just want to thank the Big Smile for
everything that I have been given. Also want to thank the Big Smile for taking
away what was unnecessary. Thanks.
