So I write. What about? Its been some time since my fingers have tickled the keyboards. Much has passed, things left unsaid. My feelings are that of loneliness and wanting. Sometimes of feelings of rejection. It is the vibe of being cast away. By someone that I should have no business. I hear her words and they hurt. It troubles me because I long for company. It's of another. I've been told that I am her friend and when she says things today I shake my head and say, "What about me?"
Another friend, she is pretty and speaks the same love language. Yet...Not sure where this longing comes from. Perhaps its time. Perhaps its overdue. I text and chat and I no longer want. Its a road I've traveled and one where there is growth and I am no longer a part of that world. I wish to and know it won't be.
Last words spoken, "Congratulations..." Last text and I moved on. I her pics on occasion. Shared my story with others and I just try to lay the feelings on the floor. Let it go and no longer feed this feeling. Hoping to let it pass. No longer part...Yet was I ever a part.
My feels it was for the best. Looking back. I hope this script has better ending. So I leave here...with understanding that this is what needs to happen. Brighter day is just around the corner.
